I've been juggling both my two loves in life, fashion and music and while it can feel a bit much at times, it's definitely nothing I can't handle. I guess I can be hard on myself to the point where I can drive myself crazy. I guess I'm at that point in my life where I begin to continuously ask myself "Is this the life I envisioned when I was younger? Am I on the right path? Am I truly happy? I can go on a tangent of pros and cons of where I'm at in life but so can everybody else. Therefore, I won't do that. I'm not gonna lie, I do go into modes where I'll beat myself up about a lot of things. I guess I'm constantly trying to out do what I have done in the past. I guess it's not a bad thing. Growth is what we are all here for, right?
We were put on this earth to interact with others, obtain experiences and have somewhat of a social life. Throughout the past couple of years I feel like I've suppressed the side of me that yearns for new adventures and excitement. I'll develop excuses as to why I shouldn't try something I've always wanted to try because I feel I should be at a certain point or end result before being able to enjoy those things. That's no way to live! I wasn't kidding about the part of being hard on myself. I know I'm not the type that likes to stay cooped up in an office all day sitting in front of the computer. I love to be out and about interacting with others and enjoying new experiences. I guess I haven't really had much of a balance lately while working on the things that make me happy. There's definitely a fine line to making sure the life you have has balance. Too much of anything is a bad thing no matter how great it may be. Having gratitude for the little things in life can be success, otherwise happiness may not ever be achieved. In the end, it's about the journey so it's important to let go and let loose!